Hello everyone! I’ll admit I almost forgot to write a blog post tonight. I’m just so out of practice it almost slipped my mind. I actually remembered while working out. I got a free one month membership to The Regimen and tonight tried my first workout. It’s pretty similar to a place I worked out at three years ago but I get to do it in the comfort of my own home. I’ll tell you more about it another night after I’ve tried a few more workouts.
Ok so the big question: am I okay? I’ll break this answer up into two parts:
yes, although I’ve put a few pounds back on. Except for taking 8 days off running following my marathon I’ve continued my running 3 days a week. I’ve actually been working my way back up to marathon training. My thinking is if I stay at a marathon level I won’t have to work back up to it. I’m toying with the idea of visiting family in California in early January. If I make it there I plan on running the Napa marathon.
Other than running I haven’t been doing anything. I did do that cyclo-cross race but I meant steady, non-running activity. Tomorrow night I plan on changing that by going to badminton again. It’s been going on for 4 weeks already but work and travel and a NHL hockey game caused me to miss them. I’m looking forward to it as it’s usually fun and a good workout.
I think I’m almost 100% again. This is the biggest reason behind my absence from the blogging world and why I’ve put on weight. The way I’ve felt is this: I’ll know what I want and/or need to do yet part of me just doesn’t care and I’ll do the wrong/not good for me thing anyways. I’d feel bad every time I didn’t do the “right” thing but it still wasn’t enough. I really don’t know why I’ve felt this way but I do know it’s not been the only time in my life. I do remember when I’ve lost my way in past weight loss attempts it’s always been September/October when it’s happened. I can’t think of a reason this time of year would present a problem! It was suggested by a friend I see a therapist and I may but I haven’t yet.
If I’m finally through this bout it’s been from constantly reminding myself I don’t want to waste all the hard work I’ve done so far this year. My 40 race challenge has helped and hurt amazingly enough. It’s helped me to have a goal to keep running and therefore not put on as much weight as I could have. It’s hurt in that some days I’d be thinking that’s a lot of work it’d be much easier to just forget about it and eat whatever you want all the time. Luckily the last part didn’t come into my head too often!
I’ll come clean with my weight in tomorrow’s post.